fat... 25/11/07

I wanna grow FAT, period.

current weight: 59.1kg
target weight: 64kg

3 more to go... 24/11/07

Just had my first paper. Hope everything went well. I gave my best shot. Never liked exams...
= ( Received a sms from Veron asking hows everything coming along. Haha... Nice gesture! Appreciate it very much! -------/@

So many things that I would like to do during the holidays! It is always during this period of times I think about what to do when I am exonerated. Although I seldom get to complete the list of to-do list, I still do it up just to motivate myself.
Here's what I have planned...

1. Piano
2. Swimming
3. Read Korean
4. Go to the beach, alone, to chill out, read a book, listen to music, ride a bike, soak in the sun
5. Play Lan all night long
6. Teach more tuition
7. Go overseas (too bad TW trip never materialize... think it will never again too! haha...)
8. Pack my room
9. Go gym to beef up... I am seriously growing a tummy! HELP!!!!!!
10. Think of what I wanna get for myself during my birthday next year
11. Get gifts for my folks, hand-made of cause and below $5!
12. Mj at Veron's and ask Uncle Peter along!!!
13. Almost forgot, GET A DECENT HAIR CUT!!!!
14 ...

2007 coming to end. COme to think about it, I seen to have achieved nothing. So so sad. Really wonder what I have been doing all along. Need to stay focus! Getting older by the day, hours, minutes, seconds... It's scary to think about it. DOn't you think so?

Perhaps the only thing I have done which I should have is to let go earlier. Sounds crappy and dumb, not like there is anything that really happened, it was just myself. Haha... Not wise to be sentimental and clinging on to old memories. It is just like being in a LV shop and you realise that you wanna grab this bag which you have been longing for but Oops! Both your hands are preoccupied with others already. Haha... Ya, it is good to let go, only then will you be able to embrace others.

meaning of Keith... 22/11/07

Miss Ren Feng gave this magnet to me! Haha... Nice gesture. = P
See the meaning of my name?
"Suggests a quiet, friendly, handsome and nice guy"
Haha... I wonder how much of that is true!
There and again, thanx!

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going... 21/11/07

Oh... did a $15 sales for the adidas pins!!! I am half way to breaking even!!!
Wee~~~
I have been searching online for this particular song and I finally found it!!!
And I made it into my ringtone!!! Haha....

choices... 20/11/07

Life is about choices. As we grow older, the choices that we have to make, increase and they become more and more important as well. Sometimes we regret making certain choices, but for some, it can be always. Despite our best efforts to make oursevles forget our bad choices, some will stay to haunt you. So, as matured and responsible adolescents, we should be able to make sound and wise choices, at least this is what most people believe in. In summary, when we are tempted by greed, curiosity and even under external pressure, it would be on the individual's onus to make wise choices, choices that will never return to haunt you...

It's like watching MOVIE... 16/11/07

Heroes is simply fantastic! Each episode is like watching a movie. It is that good and engaging. Bravo! Haha... It's only season 1 , episode 3 in Singapore but I am already at season 2 , episode 1! Haha... Simply irresistible.

nAMes... 14/11/07

Haha... This is going to sound crazy but I actually thought of names for my kids! (provided I have that is to say)

Well, I mean just thinking, the future is unpredictable.
Actually asked around and found the meanings for the names I have in mind.

"Keith was originally Scottish and probably came from a form of 'coillte' or 'ceiteach', meaning "woods" It might also have been influenced by Welsh 'coedwig' (forest), and even by Old English 'cuth' (knowledgeable) Keith is a Scottish clan, the current head of which is the Earl of Kintore"

Hym... I don't really get what it means but I think my english name sounds like I am a cult leader of somesort.

"Nathan : meaning : He (God) has given
In the Old Testament, Nathan is a prophet who served King David and his son, who was also called Nathan Nathan is also used as a short form of Nathaniel or Jonathan"

I really like the name Nathan. It sounds nice and most of all, it goes along well with my surname. If I have a boy in future, I think I might name him after this.

"Rachael : meaning: ewe something like mature, gentle like a sheep"

I have always been a fan for the name Rachael. Haha... No ideal why but ya...

K enough of crap, back to the presentation. Haiz...

"save the cheerleader, save the world"... 13/11/07

I am consumed. This show is so so so COOL! Well, now I have a hard time deciding between the 2: saving the world Vs saving lives... I think I am going to embrace the two! Grey's and Heroes...

Haha... Wei jie asked what superpower I would like to have. After a brief thought, I think I'll settle for the ability to fly. Can you believe it, I actually had this dream that I was flying? Haha... And guess what Wei Jie wants... Multiple orgasms! FREAk... I think that is not a superpower, it is an illness! Haha...

Oh... Someone actually wanna grab all my BA stk! I am definitely delighted. I mean, someone actually wans those trashes! Beauty lies in the eyes of the Beholder? Indeed! Hym... Guess my folks think I could have bargained for a higher price but seriously, it's more than that. Nobody understands better than Wei Jie. And as long as I am true to myself, it'll stay the way I want.

There's this one thing that I hope I can teach my kids in future. = p Think I have told someone before but I can't remember who it was. The thing is HUG. Er... Silly as it may sound but ya, I wanna teach my kids in future to hug his parents before sleep, hug his parents before he leaves for sch, hug his parents on one another birthday birthdays, hug his parents when he needs some comforting, but seriously, to treat hug as a very basic form of showing affection to someone that he/she loves.

Monday Blues... 12/11/07

I have a new pair of slippers! Well, not really. I bought this from Taiwan and I decided to give it a try since I have another one in my storeroom and no one is using them. I wouldn't say they are really comfy but I guess can't be too demanding right?

I was on the bus back home from school when I saw something interesting. An old uncle was sitted 2 seats infront of me. He was having this perpetual coughing. It continued for a few times before the lady sitted infront of me (directly behind him) offered him a packet of Fisher'smen Fresh sweet. And guess what, the lady was a Muslim.

This act of kindness kind of touched me, especially when it came from someone from another ethnic group. I believe most people who just change to another seat or simply ignore the old man. If it was you, would you have offered your sweet to the old uncle? Even when he is of a different skin colour from you? Perhaps this is what multi racial Singapore is...

SteAmbOat... 11/11/07

It's STEAMBOAT again!!!! Haha... I use to be quite fascinated about it but er... not anymore. I didn't eat much, all that I can remember was lots and lots of hotdog. Not worth the money man!!!

Well, it was a nice gathering with the folks and a simple way to celebrate Ren Feng's birthday. Hym... but it doesn't feel right especially without a birthday cake. There and again, aren't we too old for cakes!?

Haha... WANG LEE HOM has TITANIC chest man!!! WHao!! I am green with jealousy!!! Argh!!! I really hope I can have his!!! I shall work hard on it. Haha... Though I know that's quite impossible but well, staying healthy is more important. = p

Nothing much to blog... Just miss the TW trip so much. Think I shall go take a look at my photo albums later. Haha...

Heard a phrase yesterday when I was greying... "It takes courage to trust someone wholeheartedly." Hym... I think this sentence is very true.

I realised something. I think I enjoy the times when I am driving alone with the stereo blasting off my favourite songs! Haha... It is really a good feeling!

Current weight: 59.8kg I wanna grow FAT!!! I was chatting with my mum yesterday. We commented that my brother has put on weight. He is seriously quite beefy now. Haha... My mum said it's inherited from my dad as he was also quite skinny during his younger days. Hym... does this mean I will also grow fat when I grow much older too? Haha... I don wanna be fat i wanna be beefy!!! Wahaha... *pray pray* So sicked of being called skinny man!

December Plans... 10/11/07

Was watching Gonng S. Haha... Realized that I actually miss Korean language!! = P

Hee... Remember I once saw this Korean language book at Kino. It costs about $80. Haha... So ex!!! I've decided, after my exams in dec, I shall go buy that book!!! Yeah!!!!!

Plans for dec:

1. Swim more often
2. Learn a song on piano
3. Revise Korean
4. Teach more tuition
5. ...

flower flower... 09/11/07

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO REN FENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It has been a long week! It passed by so quickly that I didn't notice it until today. = ( I am left with not many days to exams and I am so still so slack. This is bad!!!

Haha... The pict is a gift that Lorraine received. (Haha... I can still remember last year this time when they ask me to attend her birthday celebration which I declined due to exams). The present looks very nice and I think it is expensive. Just realised something... Everyone around me is getting older and older. Of cause, this includes me as well. I realise I am turning 24 soon too?! Hym... Time really flies. I have never wanted to age so quickly, I think I seriously do not wish to. I think I am still behaving like I am in my 18 or 19s. My age is catching up but my thoughts and actions simply refuse to accept the fact. I think it is time to be act more matured and ya, time to tone down on my wildness and to be more "sturdy". Seriously, I need to.

Hym... I actually saved up quite a sum of money. Feel a small sense of achievement. = P But...
I think I shall save a portion of the money for a little present for myself next year!! I wanted to buy a Ipod but I reckon it is just a "want" and not a necesary so I have decided to give it a miss. I think I shall for once, buy a watch for myself, a decent more "sturdy" looking watch. Wanted to bu yone in Taiwan but I guess it is kind of hard to achieve. Feel a little excited already as I talk about the watch. For the remaining money, hee...

I think I have always been a jester in front of my BA crowd. I don't mind stooping low and be the centre of joke or mockery as long as it doesn't affect my pride. Haha... I talk alot at times and perhaps, most of the time. But I do appreciate a moment of silence, especially when I feel stressed or burdened with thoughts. I think we get this kind of feeling once in a while, for some more than a while I guess. Still, it is normal(at least that's what I always tell myself). We all seek refuge solace from friends or family once in a while. For me, my best vitamin for moodiness = a moment of silence and quiet to myself. It helps all the time. So no matter how you feel, whether you are at the top of the mountain or at the bottom of a thousand feet cliff, know yourself and take the right dosage of vitamin to get yourself back in shape. No one can stay at the mountain top or rock bottom forever, he or she needs is bound to hit the end of road at some point in time. But knowing when to look for alternative route in a situation like this is important.

"流泪手心" in my mind... 09/11/07

云飘在天空

浪在海流动

这世界太多

无法掌握的梦

你站在风中

你是自由的

生命有太多

不得不分的痛

当你将离别握在我手心

我听见爱被悄悄捏碎的声音

你不懂你不要的我的心

会随你松开的手而喊停

我试着微笑

试着拥抱

在每一秒

我不想看见闭上的眼睛

害怕你最后

化成泪流出手心

你给过的承诺

我怎能不放手

当诚实诉说

他的爱多辽阔

这是我的手

它牵过你往事中度过

这段漫长的路

不该走到寂寞

K-ing 4 Ren Feng...08/11/07

I have not been sleeping much for the past few days. Been too busy with school work and stuff. Just for one module, I had to stay up late in school for 3 days in a row. It is seriously taking its toll on me and the rest of my project mates. = (

See the pictures? The first one is the model that we have come up. It is seriously crazy! We had to come up with the electrical circuit and also the superstructure as well. The first pict is the structure without any decorations yet. Haha... Wonder what is underneath the board? Look at the second pict - all the wires are in a terrible mess! They are the connecting wires between the various components of our system. It is without doubt, a killer!

For the third pict? Hee... Is it nice? I am the one who came up with the decor for the inner floor. Haha... My folks taught I was too carried away. Haha... But I seriously think the floor is quite nicely done up.

As for the last pict, it is more or less the final model that we have come up with after 3 days of intensive work. It is pretty much all done-up. Just hope everything works on the big day. *fingers crossed*

Ms Ren Feng is going back to the East. Well, to end off, we decided to visit to K!!! Haha...
Whao! I think there is a difference with my singing when it has warming up and without. I certainly enjoyed my session today more the last one I had. I mean I can't sing well but at least time round I had less off key singing! Haha... Gonna miss the supper and etc...

Exams round the corner! But I still got tonnes of work and assignment. Haiz... Cannot take it. = (

I have planned what I wanna achieve after exams!!!

1. Go gym and beef up
2. Learn one of Lee Hom's song on the piano!!!

Haha... For now, the list is as such. But I believe it will grow. Till then, zzZZZ...

New WALLpaper 4 my Hp!... 07/11/07

Hey Hey!!! I got a new wallpaper! Courtesy of Ren Feng!! Haha... Been trying to get other picts too but my hp is sure cranky, it is selective when it comes to wallpaper. Hym... No idea..

For now, I'm cool wi th his! Cheers!!!!!!

long long day... 06/11/07

It has been sometime since I last updated my blog!?! Haha... Feeling alittle guilty.

Been wanting to write but I just don't seem to have that time! Help me!??!

See the post card on the left? It is from Taiwan!! Haha... Memories man!!! I was watching my clips from Taiwan trip earlier on. Haha... Was laughing at myself . I miss Taiwan so so much!!! Hym... I realised I can actually sing 心痛心动 back then. What has happened man?! I couldnt even hold a proper tune 3 days ago. Hee...

Exams round the corner. So StreSSED!? I still got tonnes of things to do, assignments, labs, projects etc... I pray, seriously, pray that they will all be gone soon.

Wanted to say this, I think I am blessed with really wonderful folks. They are giving and seriously tolerate my crap all along. Haha... I seen to be receiving alot. Hee... Well, I think they will understand since I am the poorest among all. （穷书生） Hee~~

Been listening to Lee Hom's song these few days. I think under the influence of Ren Feng, I am quite into his songs. Haha... Well, he's talented though.

I just found a new song that can keep me up all night after 改變自己. It's 日不落!!! It's so hyper!!! I love it. I think I actually like techno songs!!

Haiz... SO sad... Nothing to look forward to in Dec. Hym, I think it's now or never.

Miracles?!

Statement of the week...02/11/07

"Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new?"

" It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us... what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we’re making today."

Happy feeling... 01/11/07

Today supper was long, way too long. Didn't want it to end so late but well, things are hard to predict.

Met some bunch of other people, and they are really fun to hang around. = p

Glad to see my folks all back together, just like in the past. It is seriously a great feeling. I have lost so many of my friends and I do not wish to see that happen again.

Cheers!!

Er... I got to work on my sit-ups... Haiz...