Down... 01/07/08

I have quite alot in my mind now. Where shall I start?

Met my mentor today. He looked real perky and invigorated. Guess the long rest from working has clearly shown through the radiance on his face. Anyway, it was definitely great to see him again. Afterall, he was the one who took care of me when I was attached to H327.

Saw my fellow intern folks outside HR in the morning. Apparently they were filling in the forms to claim their pay for the sea trial they went sometime back. My heart sank when I learnt about the fact coz actually, I yearned to go for H326 sea trial. Hym... But I guess this can't be helped as I also learnt that no intern was to be allowed on vessel I was workin on as the ED was onboard. (More like ET if you were to ask me) GUess this made me felt alittle better though part of me still... ANyway, I have been bumming around for the past 2 days while the vessel is out in the sea. I guess not going on the trial is indeed a blessing in disguise.

My folks have been complaining and reprimanding me for doing insane number of OTs recently. Well, all I wanna do is to earn more though I know the OT pay is norminal. All that I want is to... ASAP. Of all people, they should know better than anyone else. I know they are showing their care and concern for me. I'm just torn in between...

Oh with regards to my blog title, there's a couple of reasons to it.
1) My weight went DOWN since I started working. I'm officially 3 kg lighter...
2) My level of zest has gown DOWN.
3) My appetite has gown DOWN.
4) My savings have gone DOWN.
5) NUmber of laps of free and breast that I can do has gone DOWN too.

Basically, all that can go down, have had.

Had double blows from my best pals these few days. Heard something which really felt like a knife aimed straight for the heart. If you ask if its bleeding, you bet. Guess nothing hurts more than hearing from the pals you are close too. There and again, what's your criterions for a best pal? I'm lost... Maybe I'm EMO-ing (term I gathered from a friend). I think the situation I am in happpens at times. All I hope for is that it's occurence is not periodic and frequent.

Btw, I had a little incident that got me reflecting upon myself. Perhaps I am like ... that pisses people off at times. Haha... I am definitely learning how it feels like to be the receiving party. Well, don't bank into a bank when it's not bankable. What am I talking about?

Maybe it's the time of the month again.

Sometimes I ask myself why I look forward to going at work, like looking forward to meeting Uncle Birdy and Harris. I realise I don't really get to help in such stuff. SOmetimes all I did was just to stand in one corner and tried to help in any minute way that I could possibly capable off. The "Thank you" I get from them made up for everything - even if it meant getting soaked through the overall that I wearing. I reckon its all about appreciating and being appreciated. Perhaps its not happening anymore in my... which accounts for...

Just to side track alittle, I kind of love the novel, "P.S". Kind of interesting. Shall continue reading it. ANd, I saw a nice Fossil wallet. It's really like me! Haha... not too pricey. I might just be able to afford it.

The quest continues...