I'm disappointed with myself for barely making it for my recent Economics test. Utterly!
Finally managed to clear the initial training for my FYP. Seems like I have much more to clear. Least I got something cleared so I can plan my next course of action. Guess the next few weeks gonna be pretty packed.
Went for a recruitment talk and I can't help feeling the pressure. The burden just gets bigger and heavier. If only you can feel for me. I'm simply losing it... Seems like it is going to be a tough year ahead when I graduate especially with the recent near collapse of the american economy. The repercussions would definitely be anything but minor by then.
Oh! I'm officially holding just a job now. Had my last lesson with Jos earlier in the day. He was "nice" enough to on the fan after the thousand and one times which I had requested him to. Perhaps it was the last lesson which accounted for his sudden act of kindness but guess what, I was wronged! He was so persistent to get me to buy him a "farewell" gift which cost ~$14? It was none other than some trading card or something along the line. Well, I didn't give in to him for I know, this was pretty much the last chance for us to meet unless some colossal coincident brings us to meet on the street in future. Still, it had been a pleasure teaching him. After all, he or rather his Mum financed most of my...
So, with no income stream? I guess my only way out is to tighten my waist belt and be more thrifty. If I can do it in the past, I can definitely do it again. Or at least I try to for I have another compelling reason to now. Seems like I'm leaving much of my thoughts to the "fill-in-the-blanks".
Anyway, thanx to my friends for the dinner and accommodating my sudden disruptive behavior. Trust me, it doesn't come too often. I reckon it was just today after being dormant for a while.
Having written so much gloomy and dark feelings, I do find the little color, rainbow at the end of the day. I'm happy, elated, over the clouds, delighted, and most of all, genuinely glad. And perhaps above everything else, relieved. Every steps and actions taken are meant in a good fashion and clearly they are worth every single effort devoted. *beaming*
Do you come to a point where you feel the path in front of you breeds familiarity? To me, absolutely. Trodden paths shall never be taken again, especially when you have seen, witnessed and felt the pain that came along with it. Caution is what I will adopt from now and be careful with every single steps I take. It doesn't just concern me anymore, or that's what I used to think in the past.
If you're still reading this, I congratulated you once again; for enduring my twaddle yet again.
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