Acceptance... 13/01/09

It was coincidental, but one that I enjoyed very much. Happened to meet JY when I was withdrawing cash from the ATM in school today. I guess you can say it was all planned out? Coz the usual POSB ATM that I always visit was down so I had to settle for the OCBC and that's where I got to bump into her as I busy babbling over the cell phone.

The first time I bumped into her, I dragged her along to board 96 with me. And today, I did it again. I got her to accompany me for my meal while she was on her way back to the office after running some errand..

We had a wonderful talk; catching up on each other, friends etc.. Just realised how much I have missed her since she left for Aus. The one person who seems to know me inside out back in Secondary times, is pretty much the same. Or at least that's how I feel after our brief conversation. Started to talk abt r/s and if she didn't mention, I would have forgotten all the suitors that I used to have back then. Ya! I know that's kind of hard to imagine, but I do have some. Haha... What has happened to me?! Whatever it is, thanks for being around, JiaYing. I would have given her a hug if I could. (I'm not saying I'm not appreciative towards my current friends ya!?)

I was just thinking of what I have done for the past few years; the good and the bad ones. Seems like I can't quite figure the former. Perhaps I have done none of it at all. I should really reflect upon myself...

I reckon...

Some stuff seem to be less pertinent, perhaps when you begin to accept. I realise that when you choose to open up to others, it is by itself an act of acceptance; a form of acquiescence of who you are... Guess this rendered some form of solace as I have gathered. I trully think this is a phase of life and it will go away as time has proven time and again. 

I also begin to think of how non-conforming-ly conforming I have been all this while. Though I always say I like to do things that are against the mainstream, I'm not an advocate of what I preach...

You're probably scratching your head and wonder if I am talking about some alien theory. Some will relate better than others. Don't fret if you're not of them coz it's meant to be exclusive in the first place. 

Oh! I'm not Emo-ing. I've gotten past that stage.

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The fact is, I ... you...

I ... the way you talk to me...

I ... the way you made me feel special...

and, I also know that...

I will forget you one day...