Was lying on the bed around 10 plus and I couldn't sleep till now... Too many things going through my mind... 

I thought I was containing it well inside me but I guess I'm wrong. A friend could tell I haven't quite been myself since COuntdown. Was surprised and glad at the sametime... And yes, it has been troubling me since then.

You know how everyone says I can't keep secrets? How every minute secrets will be leaked or broadcasted whenever they get to me? Ya, they're right. But there's one person's secret that I can keep; mine.

I thought my bottle for secrecy was at its brim which was why I asked a friend of mine out today. It was a nice chat session and I couldn't believe how I managed to keep it to myself, depsite feeling the urge to spill the beans. I know nothing can be done even if I shared so I decided to bottle it up as before. I was seriously this close to saying it out but I chose to zip. It was hard but I did it. Perhaps, it's not that hard to keep a secret afterall.

I'm not writing this entry as a leak for folks around me to come asking me what's wrong. Rather, I'm just using this as my only avenue to try to ease the burning pain from within, or at least I try to. If you do respect me, please do not question me. I'm trying very hard...

I should have said, "No!" when I had the chance.

I should have stopped myself, knowing this is the ending.

I should have figured it out.

I should have known better...